When I was in school, I used to hate all my teachers. Yes I like math a lot, but still hated the teacher. I hated the fact I had to wake up early in the morning for tuition. I hated to carry loads of books where ever I go. I wanted to have freedom of when to study and when not to study. I didn’t want that routine life, which was typically tuition in the morning, school in during day time again tuition in evening, then come back to home and sit and do home work. I wanted to grow up and enter college as early as possible.
Then I entered college, spent two years in a hostel, away from home. By end of one year, I realized that I’m in the middle of a rat race. School days were so good and there was plenty of time to study, play with no strings attached. Again the cribbing started. Started hating wardens and Profs again but at the same time started admiring some professors. Life became routine again. Wake up at 4am, follow the schedule throughout the day and sleep by 11pm. All I wanted then was to get a rank less than 1000 in EAMCET and join AU. Till then I was clear that in engineering I won’t be again going to be part of this rat race. Instead of AU, I joined NIT, JSR.
I know after 1st year that this is the golden phase of life, and I have to enjoy it. I made some great friends over there. I was the 1st one to sleep in my room, spent almost 1 whole year, as my frnds say, at relatives. Never tried to study. My motto was no pain no gain. But fortunately I gained a lot without much pain from NIT. Some of my batch mates feel that their mind was sharper before joining NIT. But I never thought in that direction. I liked it for many reasons. But yes, still wanted to get out of that place quickly because of power problems and crappy food.
Then I entered IIM. Against my normal will, I tried to study hard. Used to sit in Library for hours. I know I was studying very hard, more than cumulative 4 years in NIT. But 1st term results came as a slap on my face. Realized what I was doing wrong. Brought back my funda of no pain no gain. Then life became normal and back on track. But here I realized that this is the only time left for me to enjoy life at its fullest. This became the only phase in life with no cribbing and rich memories. But as people say if all things are going smoothly then you are in a wrong lane, recession hit us. Now again cribbing started.
Now Job. Complete turnaround of event. I started trying to work hard. The more I tried the more I’m succeeding. But now, when performance appraisal is coming, I realized that my life turned on its head. Now it looks full of pain and not much gain. Again a routine life full of cribbing. But the thing is that cribbing continues all the time and you’ll learn that as age grows complexity increases. It is very important to live in present. Kal ko kisne dekha!!
After thought: After realizing all this, why the hell I still like to live in past and dream about future?? I guess everyone does this and no one has any answer to it!! J
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